January 31, 2005

guilty or not...

So Michael Jackon's trial starts this week. He stands accused of licking a sleeping boy's forehead during a flight on his private jet, and he admits to it...but he says that he was only attempting to keep the boy warm after his clothes 'fell off' during rough turbulence. Wahahaha....

laziness

This country allows you to be as lazy as you want. Everything at the grocery store comes pre-packaged, pre-washed, pre-cut. It's great! I just made chicken chow mein and all I had to do was throw the already cut and sliced veggies into the pot...stir them for a minute or two...then dump the noodles and sauce into the mix. After a few minutes...voila! Dinner is served. I love it.

I'm sick again. It sucks a big one. I can't breathe through my nose. Argh! I wasn't even healthy for that long. :'(

January 30, 2005

take care of the golf balls

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar..and the coffee... A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes." The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.   "Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, " I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things -your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions -things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else -the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand." One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

Contemplating...

moving again. I think I know why I feel so homesick sometimes...it's cos the place where I'm currently living doesn't feel like home. I don't particularly like my housemates...well one hasn't been here and the other one I don't even talk to. I stopped making an effort so we didn't talk for a few days. Then yesterday she finally said something to me...and it was about hair in the bathtub drain. Blah. My TV doesn't really work either...we have an aerial but everytime we change the channel (we only have 5) we have to re-adjust it. The reception is crap...our sound is fine...but our picture ranges from slightly fuzzy to very fuzzy. I like my room though...and my rent is very reasonable. For London anyway.

I'll see how things go...but I was thinking if I'm going to be here for another 11 months, then it might be worth it to look into living somewhere that makes me happy.

Whose Life Is It Anyway?

Wow it is almost Feb. Hmm that means...tomorrow's payday!! Woohoo!

I went to see Whose Life Is It Anyway? with Karen yesterday. We got a couple of half price tickets from TKTS, and they were pretty amazing seats...stopped by Borough Market for lunch...then took the tube to Leicester Square. It was really good, Kim Cattrall plays a paraplegic so she is in bed for the whole play. Her character reminds me a bit of Samantha Jones haha. The rest of the cast were all brilliant as well. It's definitely one of the better plays I've seen here. It was about a pretty serious topic, but they injected a lot of humour into it. Like there was part when Claire Harrison (Kim) was talking about things that she could do..."John says that I can move my head" so she turns her head to the left and then to the right..."I can be a tennis umpire!" Then she moved her head faster..."and if I get really good, I can do ping pong!"

Then I met up with Rachel and we went to Brick Lane for some curry. I had sag lamb which is lamb with spinach. It was yum. We ended up at Angel afterwards for a pint. There was a bar there called The Green which looked very nice...will have to go back sometime. Drinking is such a big part of the British culture...I'm definitely drinking more here than I did back home...I think my tolerance has gone up lol.

On Friday I went to see Closer with Nate. I thought it was ok...a bit sad but that's reality for ya. Good intentions and reality can be two very different things. Natalie Portman says in the movie...that there is always a moment when you can cave in...or you can resist. And that's so true...so many times people make the wrong decision...and end up hurting someone they love. Is it worth it in the end...probably not.

I'm having such a lazy day...going to to see Birth tonight. ISH was supposed to have shown it last week but they were having technical difficulties. We ended up watching American Pie 3 instead...slightly annoying but it was a good laugh.

January 21, 2005

Nature's First Green Is Gold...

When something's been a certain way for a really long time...sometimes it's hard to believe when you see something unexpected. When you come to depend on someone's unwavering presence...and the comfort they give...it can be a real jolt to suddenly see the whole picture...the good and the ugly. But when someone constantly lies to you and does things that make you sad...they just can't bring out the best in you. Even I have started to dislike myself...for who I have become. Sometimes I think if my heart were to break one more time, it would shatter. Funny how history repeats itself eh. To love someone despite all...is that unconditional love? Or is that not loving myself enough?

January 19, 2005

Itchy!

I have a skin reaction right now and I'm so itchy!! All over!! I went to see a doctor today and she gave me some anti-biotics cos she thinks I have a baterial infection. Hopefully I'll feel better soon. =(

Right now at work we are rolling out a new system so we have to go to these 'training sessions'. So far I have fallen asleep in every single session...tomorrow is the last one. I don't know why...I even drank tea! It's just the atmosphere I think...very soporific...reminds me too much of school and lectures.

Speaking of which, I've come to the very sad realisation that I'm not a student anymore. Which means...no more student discounts. Technically I haven't been a student for about 8 months now...but I still had my ISIC card so could pass as a student. Now I have to pay 'adult' prices for everything!! Wahh!! It's like when you graduate from a child to a teenager...suddenly - no more kids meals and child prices. I am now at the apex of the paying hill...no more breaks til I become a senior citizen (37 years to go).

January 15, 2005

Jetlag

So I managed to stay up til past midnight yesterday...and I woke up at 8:30 this morning! Woohoo! The past couple of nights I've been sleeping at 8 PM and waking up at 4 AM...I even fell asleep at work which was bad. I got dragged to a colleague's leaving do on my first day back at work and got sick after only one drink. I'm not usually such a lightweight but I was drinking on an empty stomach and was SO ready for bed. I found out that people at my company DO socialise outside of work haha...just not in my dept.

I'm feeling slightly better now. I was really homesick when I first got back. Sometimes I really wish I had my own place. I've decided that one of my housemates is miserable. I tried being nice to her and engaging her in conversation, but she's the unfriendliest person ever. We still don't have a router yet...so only one person can use the modem at any one time which is kinda annoying.

January 12, 2005

Living Well Is The Best Revenge

So I'm back in London...I'm clean, unpacked...and going into work tomorrow. Sigh! I can't believe how fast the past three weeks went by...I had a really good time though. Spent time with family and saw some really good friends. =) Did some shopping too...got most of what I had wanted to get.

So far this year I have not bitten my nails...not once!! Yay for me! I hope I keep this up. And I am going to really try to improve my posture from now on...I also want to be happier and more enthusiastic in general. We should always be striving to improve ourselves right? I'm going to look into taking a course for fun...maybe massage therapy haha.

January 01, 2005

Happy New Year!

It's 2005! Day one...

I woke up early(ish) this morning to say goodbye to a few of my cousins who were heading back south of the border. I plan to head down there too sometime in the next few days to take advantage of some of the sales that are sure to be taking place. Then I had lunch and just lounged around...returned a few e-mails and folded some laundry.

I just came back from Timmies, where I caught up with a couple of my high school friends. It was really nice to see them again. I usually see Maggie everytime I come back, but I hadn't seen Tracey in about 2 years. We talked about what we're doing now...and gossiped about people we knew back in high school haha. Apparently this guy...whom I didn't really like at all...and whose name rhymes with mine...is now engaged!! I was flabbergasted when I heard it. We also realized that we're halfway to our 10 year reunion...scary.

So new years resolutions...I have a few. To be happy...and not let little things get me down. See more of the world. Get fit...eat a little healthier...tone up a bit. Spend time and energy on people who matter...cos life is short. Be more decisive...by this I mean making better decisions faster. Be more aware in general...and to read more.

2004 was certainly an eventful year...an emotional rollercoaster...not unlike other years. I hope next year goes more smoothly. I just want a simple uncomplicated life...I don't know if I'll get my fairy tale...but I don't want any more of this soap opera.

while I'm watching the sun burning
as the road is slowly turning
well I know
that in letting go
I'm learning how to live
through a life I have to give